I’ve been quiet again lately. There really isn’t an explanation for it. Perhaps things are just that good for me now? No, I don’t think that is the case. It’s more a situation where there are things that I feel that I want to write about, but I’m not sure that I should. Therefore… silence. Our world is so sensitive to so many topics. Honestly, I couldn’t care less if I offend anyone with anything that I write about, but sometimes I end up second guessing most of my thoughts. And boy do I think! And think, and think, and then over think. That’s just how my mind works. It can be an absolute pain in the ass at times.
What does silence sound like? What would it be like to not think about everything that’s happening to me? What would it be like to just avoid thinking about what could happen; what has happened? I’ve tried meditation, which I need to get back to, but even that doesn’t help. I often find my mind wandering back to topics that I was thinking on before or even something completely new. “Just gently guide your thoughts back to your breathing.” Yeah, yeah. That’s easier said than done Miss Disembodied Voice in my ears.
Even now my thoughts aren’t entirely on what I’m typing up, and that makes doing this difficult. I know what I want to say, but something else gets typed out instead. I have to keep retyping sentences to make all of this make some sort of sense.
One thing that I will get out of my head is simply signs. Why are there some people who think that signs have instructions that just don’t apply them? I was on my way to work yesterday morning and watched an SUV in front of me run a red light to make a left hand turn. He didn’t stop or pause. He just drove right through it. There was no traffic, luckily, but that doesn’t matter. I did have a good laugh at it, however, because the light actually changed to green about a second after he drove through.
This is something that I see on a daily basis. People don’t read signs or notifications when they come across them. I’m sure that I’ve been guilty of that before. It’s incredibly easy to do when you’re distracted by your phone or someone that’s talking next to you. We really should be more attentive to the things that are around or in front of us.
And now I’ve gone off on a tangent this Sunday morning. I’m probably not even making much sense. That is, however, okay.
I really need to do this more often. It’s actually a bit of a stress reliever for me.